My pain that you don't have.

You're not in the pain
You have never felt my pain
You have a family
You say you care
But why have I changedso much?
You haven't notice
Because you don't care
You're not the first
You don't understand me
No one ever does
I can only find people who understand me on the internet
I don't talk to them because you have to see me when no one is around
I hug my legs andpillow hoping the pain goes away
I know it won't
I hear pills help
But the fear of getting caught scares me
If you were my best friend you would notice my pain
So I guess no one can help me
If you can't help me
No one can