When the moon is full and pure
I feel so safe and secure
That was until you came into my heart
And tore my unknowing and trusting soul apart
I thought nothing could hurt my emotions or body
Your style is ridiculously obnoxious and gaudy
That is an equal to your outlook on life
You stabbed through my emotions with a knife
You think you are so much better than everyone else around you
Your arrogance is annoying and your retaliations are untrue
Sometimes you make me wish I had a gun
I think that might make things incredibly fun
Then we would see who got the last laugh in
You being here should be considered a sin
You are the cockiest son of a bitch I have ever met
You think that you are all I want to get
It is true I had feelings for you in the past
How, with the way you treat me, did you think that would last?
You think I hate the girl you have feelings for
The truth is I love the way she stabbed your heart and left it broken and sore
I could only envy her for hurting you the way you hurt me
You spit out the jokes on me like you are in some racing spree
I found out what you were thinking that night
And what you thought was apparent fright
I went in to a horrible depression mode
So to my side you gallantly strode
You thought you were a knight on some high white horse
You probably figured feelings for me you could force
You mistook me wanting you for my heart being blue
You thought that I was throwing myself at you
But if you only know the truth
You wouldnt have tried to be so sleuth
I never wanted those things to occur
You probably figure it would all remain a big blur
I found out what it was that you thought
You used me and cause me to be frustrated and distraught
You thought at that moment you were consoling me
I bet you thought you were setting my soul free
From the thoughts running through my mind
The truth is, what you did was anything but kind
You wanted the thoughts in my head to stop
Your plan turned out to be a horrible flop
I told you not to kiss me if it was out of pity
You did exactly that and left me feeling worthless and shitty
Afterward you ignored me and that made it all worse
Your existence after that night has been a horrible curse
Fuck you for using me for your own pleasure
Go to hell for taking my heart like you were a pirate and it your treasure
You can go fucking kill yourself for all I care
Because it was my feelings that you did not spare
Every time I see you I want to punch you in the face
And give you pain and scars that you could never erase
You will one day feel this pain which I feel
And on that day I will bask in your anguish and squeal
I will rejoice in your misery and pain
That is my main satisfaction which I wish to gain
© Amber Robinson April 12, 2006
