Nobody could imagine the sorrow which i feel
It would all stop if i could feel the cold blade of steel
All of my problems could be solved with the touch of a knife
I would no longer have to face this pain and strife
No one can understand what is going through my head
Everyone would be better off if i was gone and dead
People only know the lies that i lead them to believe
The truth is somethig my friends imaginations could never conceive
If they would open their eyes the truth they could find
But they don't pay attention to my words and actions so they remain blind
I change myself so they believe only what i want them to see
If i left this world now my soul might be happy and free
Everyone would be better off and less stressed if i did not exist
I am the cause for more problems than i could ever list
I could not name them all even if i had an eternitys time
People make me feel useless, empty and like slime
One example is as follows
It is a main reason my heart has been left and abandoned in the gallows
Every guy i like ends up treating me like shit
When i am around them they wouldnt even look in my direction to spit
Every guy i hook up with seems to end up being a one night stand
This continues to scar my heart and leaves me with a brand
They always seem to like someone else the next day
I wonder if i am justthe type of girl who cant get a guy to stay
No guy seems to like me for who i am
All the guys in my life seem to say "wham, bam, thank you ma'am"
Every aspect of my life seems to be going to hell
It is hard to believe this is just some sort of dry spell
The scars of my life run deep inside
It is amazing how well they hide
Soon they will all be known
And at that moment all of my secrets will be shown
At that time everyone will be able to see
What i ahve been trying t hide for what seems to have been an eternity
April12, 2006
