I Still Feel Sick

I still feel sick

It’s been a few months

But I still can’t seem to get over you

I still feel sick

I still want you every day

But I know I can’t have you

I still feel sick

Going over everything in my head

But can’t figure out what anything is or was

I still feel sick

Maybe dying would be the best way to get rid of you

But then again maybe not

I still feel sick

I wonder what happened and why

But I can’t seem to understand anything anymore

I still feel sick

I “choose” not to try anymore

But now I know I should’ve never tried in the first place

I still feel sick

I feel the pain of losing you every night before I fall asleep

But all that really does is make you haunt my dreams

I still feel sick

Maybe obsession is a good word for what I have

But I’m positive that isn’t the word to use

I still feel sick

I watch you pass me by

But I wish I was still next to you

I still feel sick

As I sense you moving further and further away from me

But trying to put it in my head that it is for the better

I still feel sick

I know I’ll never have you again

But that won’t stop me from wanting you any less

March 29, 2008