The Other Side

my hand is on the doorknob
i'm afraid to see what's on the other side
many things await ahead of me
i'm afraid to even see what it is
i hestitate and think
about the mistakes i've done
and the things i regret
i think about the past
when i should ponder about the future
i think about the ones around me
and rarely about myself
i worry about things that don't really matter
when it should be what's most
important
i hide under a mask
no one knows the true me
under the mask i hide the hurt and pain inside of me
and what i am truly feeling
i feel like i've lived a fake life
and i haven't made the right decisions
i wonder if i had made the right choice,
done the right thing...
but then i think about taking risks
and doing things i don't usually do
trying to change the most of every bad situation
and be more positive
be different, or more like myself
take off the mask and show the true face behind it
no more hiding and pretending
and reveal the true person under it
i have regained confidence and happiness
i've finally let go of my past
forgotten the mistakes i've made and regrets i have
i think of the life ahead of me and once in a while about myself
i plan to make the rest of my life worthwhile
i decide to just turn the knob
and open the door and see what will happen next...