Sadly, quiet, i sit here invisible
camouflaged in my own skin
I try to keep still,
as to call no attention to me.
No one looks, no one speaks
to me, no acknowledgement given
they speak of me,
but never to me.
They choose not to see,
they choose not to speak,
to me, only of me.
They speak no kind words,
and ignore this person,
writing this truth.
I wish no to be here,
i just want to go.
I do not belong in a place like this.
I want to be alone again,
all alone in my room.
Nothing but music blaring,
and with no cruel eyes staring,
i'll sit there and cry,
wishing, just as they do,
that i'd have died,
that nite so long ago
Wishing i would have had the guts
to pull the blade across my throat.
Sitting there, crying, and breaking,
i am damned to remain,
until my "sis" would come in,
She'd scream and yell,
completely overlooking the tear
in the corner of my eye.
I wonder if it's still there,
for i've become unable to cry.
My small relief gone.
my blood will run numb,
my arm begs for the cut,
i hesitate, look around
no one there.
i pull out the razor,
my blood begins to run.
This cut on my arm,
mimics the one within my soul
Yet, my tears,
for which i long,
remain hidden, away from me.
The silver pools of tears,
have dried up,
no more rain, no more storms.
from my eyes shall come.
Is this my punishment,
for being different,
for being who i am?
Or is it just more torture?
My life-not the worst
yet not ever close to the best.
Look upon it at school,
i've no reason to feel this way.
Look upon it, through the truth,
and i've got reason enough.
These eyes, they stare,
but see nothing.
they look right through me,
they'll never see
past my imperfections,
they'll count all of my cracks,
my dents,
my breaks,
my faults,
my cuts and scars.
and so,
quietly, sadly, i sit here invisible,
no one dares, to look
no one dares to speak
to this sad, invisible freak.
"Good Bye Memories,
From the past.
Good Bye Day,
Night grows fast.
I Lost My Hope,
But I suffer the same.
Wishing on Stars,
For the angels to take me away.
Saying Goodbye to the body,
But here it still remains."
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