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Where to start these words so full of pain
Sittin outside lookin at this rain
In this pouring water I feel so at home
Cuz my house is the place I feel most alone
So outside I escape to natural peace
Even heres not a perfect release
Cuz these secrets and failures keep me the same
As I hear this world callin me back with my name
Being me is harder then you think
Only lookin forward to escaping with this ink
See, I have some things that I wanna say
So here it goes, Ill tell you bout my days
Go to school with lonesome in my heart
It already sucks, straight from the start
Gods all I have cuz I keep Him in mind
When making decisions, wanna leave the bad ones behind
Thats why Im alone thats why no one likes me
Never skipped school, did pot or extacy
You think Im boring cuz I do whats right
And yeah, maybe Im alone every Friday night
Im not promoting drugs thats not my intention
Just showin how this world needs intervention
But thats just one problem heres the next
Its a little confusin a little complex
Less then ninety pounds, should be gainin weight
Sometimes my fat is exactly what I hate
Im against Barbie and all those types of girls
But the tables turn when I want to hurl
I dont even like the look of skin and bones
But words affect as much as sticks and stones
Remember when I wore long-sleeve shirts?
Its cuz I wanted to get rid of the hurt
Bled and bled kept it so discrete
Pause, Play, Fast-forward, and then repeat
Habits quickly turn to toxic addiction
Those were my wounds of self-infliction
With this poison running through my mind
To the pain I was so blind
All healed now, though still blood-cravin
Maybe I still need a little life savin
So were at the end, and this rains stopped pouring
Sorry if this sounded, just a little boring
Words dont do justice to feelings so deep
But it was my time to be the willow that weeps
