Once They Found Me Dead.

My chest constricts…
But I refuse to cry.
So I sit all alone…
And shiver and sigh.
My arms are wrapped around me so tight…
But somehow I don’t think I’ll last the night.
I just can’t hold me hard enough…
My breathing hurts me, ragged and rough.
My jaw clenches tight…
And my eyes squeeze shut.
I feel so hurt…
Like a bleeding cut.
Yet no blood or tears fall from me…
So I cast myself out to the sea.
Its cold embrace…
Holds me down.
While the waves go crashing round and round…
I’d often wondered what I’d think…
When in between life and death’s fine brink.
But the only thing that echoes in my head…
Is if he’d finally miss me…
Once they found me dead.