Missing

“Something’s missing”
Like opening the wound
Something you’ll never say

I'm picking me apart again
Was my existence ever here?

You all assume
Trying to look for

I'm safe here in my room
Someone that will care

Unless I try to start again
Someone to tell me I’m alright
I don't want to be the one
Never have I felt so lost

The battles always choose
Never felt so alone

'Cause inside I realize
I’m trying to get out of here

That I'm the one confused
and out of your way
I don't know what's worth fighting for
You don’t even know I’m not here

Or why I have to scream
You don’t know that I’m gone

I don't know why I instigate
I even tried to say goodbye

And say what I don't mean
You just turned a blind eye

I don't know how I got this way
I’m sailing in a sea of blood

I know it's not alright
Without a compass

So I'm breaking the habit
So what if I’ve gone missing

I'm breaking the habit
Notice that I’m missing

Tonight
In time
Clutching my cure
Gone with the wind

I tightly lock the door
Can’t bind me to this world

I try to catch my breath again
It’s about time I break away

I hurt much more
Drifting, floating

Than anytime before
Following the clouds

I had no options left again
Until the ends of the earth
I don’t want to be the one

Trying to find a way
The battles always choose

Some kind of easy path
'Cause inside I realize

But if the earth had a ledge
That I'm the one confused
Maybe I could fall off
I don't know what's worth fighting for
Since you can’t tell me to come back

Or why I have to scream

Since you don’t even know
I don't know why I instigate

You don’t know how much I have bled
And say what I don't mean

Knowing that you don’t care
I don't know how I got this way

So lost out in this bloody sea
I'll never be alright

There is no guiding star
So, I'm breaking the habit

So what if I’ve gone missing
I'm breaking the habit

Notice I am missing
Tonight
In time
I'll paint it on the walls

I didn’t run away
'Cause I'm the one at fault

I am simply fading
I'll never fight again

Doom to wandering
And this is how it ends
And see the empty sky
I don't know what's worth fighting for
You didn’t notice I’m not here

Or why I have to scream
Didn’t find out I’m gone

But now I have some clarity
I just wanted to say goodbye

to show you what I mean
Are both of your eyes blind

I don't know how I got this way
My ship has finally sunk below

I'll never be alright
I’m drowning in my blood

So, I'm breaking the habit
So what if I’ve gone missing

I'm breaking the habit
I’m forever missing

I’m breaking the habit
No one can find me

Tonight

In time